Envy

There are people in this world that have a happy expression on their faces all the time... I used to be one of them and I'm trying really hard to get myself back there! So now everytime I see a happy-tastic person I get a little green around the gills so to speak.

I'm trying to figure out what is different in my life now. Comparing the sublimely happy me to the me that I am right now.

Now don't get me wrong... I am NOT a sadsack or depressed, I'm just not as happy-go-lucky as I used to be.

Maybe its the weather - I mean its almost April and we still have a lot of snow on the ground... oh yeah and its snowing right now!!! ewww

Maybe once its warmer and I can spend a lot more time outdoors it'll be better... but come on!! I LIVE in CANADA!!! 2/3's of our year is crap weather!! we really only get from maybe May-September with warmish weather... that's only FOUR months of joy! But I hope this year I remember to take advantage of the joy of the Big Blue Room... Plus we're going on a cruise at the end of September to Hawaii so thats some more cause for happy-happy!!

Thinking about the past... I used to really get a lot of joy out of crafts and baking and that sort of thing... so I think my plans for the weekend will include finding my breadmaker, baking some awesome raisin bread, cleaning up my craft room and making something awesome.... I think I'll call my mom too... She's super awesome!! I'll call my sister too... She's so great!!

Well... this was a weird post, but I'm glad its out there! It looks like I have a plan... I like plans! Now all I need is a checklist... I like checklists... makes it feel like you've gotten so much accomplished... :P